I started my hospitalist shift like any other day. I arrived at 5:30 a.m. for shift hand-off at 7 a.m. A full hospitalist load and endless administrative tasks to complete, the duality of both roles punctured me like a venomous snake bite. I had two full-time jobs to complete in 12 hours. Impossible! Or was it? I added one and one-half hours to my shift at the beginning–time hidden behind …
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At birth, our rudimentary brains have very few developed circuits. Through everyday experiences, we slowly develop simple circuits before the more complex circuits form. Our interactions with caregivers teach us words and shape our concepts, and we ultimately string concepts together into thoughts.
We have tens of thousands of thoughts every day, but many go unnoticed. Our brain utilizes an autopilot mode so that each day isn’t a completely new experience. …
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As a hospice and palliative care physician, grief is a familiar concept to me. It is most often discussed in the context of loss of life. However, grief at the root is simply profound and agonizing distress caused by loss — any loss. In hospice and palliative care, we train to recognize risk factors for complicated grief and to refer for early intervention. The pandemic has been the ideal breeding …
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I started planning my escape in late 2020. I would find a way to quit health care, to cease being a practicing physician altogether. Living the life of a doctor-mom, I felt consumed with daily obligations and duties.
Guilt plagued me for feeling burdened by this life, for feeling it was a monotonous prison. The guilt soon transformed to anger. I was not showing up to my life in a meaningful …
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I began pondering this topic after I witnessed a health care professional post on Facebook her hospital system’s expectation that she return to work five days into COVID, still ill and actively symptomatic. She needed more recuperative time but struggled to give herself permission to take it. Unfortunately, this scenario is all too common in the health care community. How did we get here?
Demoting the importance of my own health …
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