As the last line of defense in soccer, the goalkeeper holds a privileged position. She’s the one who can see the whole field unfolding in front of her, and she’s the one who must come up with big plays when the game is on the line. When I was a goalkeeper, I lived for the pressure, drama and chance to be the one to make the big plays for my ...

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I did some pretty crazy things to get into medical school (don’t worry Mom, nothing illegal). For several years before applying I became a medicine groupie. I read books about being a doctor, watched documentaries about medicine, shadowed physicians for hours on end so I could imagine what it might be like. I watched many a friend go off to med school and graduate … and I waited, I hoped. ...

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As a native New Yorker, I was thrilled when Governor Cuomo announced plans for an executive order that prohibits discrimination against transgender people in areas such as employment and housing. Specifically, this executive order would expand existing anti-discrimination protections to include gender identity, transgender status, and gender dysphoria. There have also been advancements regarding the protection of transgender people from discrimination in health care. Recently, the Department of Health and Human ...

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Have you ever had that experience when you think what you're doing is futile, and that thought goes through your mind: "Why am I doing this?" "I'm torturing him." "This feels wrong." For those of us that are physicians, think back to your internship and residency training.  I think we can all remember at least one of these situations, if not more. I remember being in the ICU as a third-year internal medicine resident, being sent ...

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I started medical school recently. Before it started, I told myself (and everybody else) that I would feel like a kid in a candy shop when I was here. I'd get to try different specialties and figure out which one I want to do out of everything that excited me. It really is kind of like that, don't get me wrong. But I'm also confused and disheartened. I had a different ...

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I wonder how I would’ve felt if Ben Carson had run for president back when I was a kid. At that age, I was wholly inspired (and terribly intimidated) by doctors. They knew everything! They were the coolest people ever! Nowadays, I’m in medical school where I’ve learned that doctors definitely learn a lot, but we’re not the coolest ever, and we are certainly not filled with innate knowledge on ...

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To be a third year medical student is to enter a world that few understand. The pressure of constant evaluation, the stress of doing well in the field which you want to enter, and the fear of making a mistake often haunt the very long days and night which characterize the most physically exhausting year of medical school. Yet quite frequently as I move through this year I find myself feeling ...

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“She has a pneumothorax. You ever placed one of these before?” The senior resident handed me a chest tube. An intern who had been standing nearby smiled and quipped, “It’s your lucky day.” Three weeks into my surgery rotation -- my first rotation of third year -- I was taking a night shift in the emergency room when paramedics wheeled Ms. P into the trauma bay, frail and bruised, hardly breathing. Oftentimes, ...

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Lately, there seems to be a lot of negativity surrounding the practice of medicine. From the staggering student debt, to the grueling hours as a resident, to the high rate of burn out, it sometimes feels as though this profession is constantly under attack. To be honest, I’ve threatened to quit medicine so many times over the last decade that it’s become somewhat of a family joke. I even went ...

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In May 2014, I gave my Grandma Lou a call to say goodbye before heading to Guatemala for two months of research. She took the opportunity to tell me her cancer had relapsed, and she didn’t think she wanted treatment. I was so anxious the entire trip that that phone call would be my final goodbye to Grammy but she conceded to my family’s pleading to receive treatment that was ...

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